Missing My Aim

I've written under 10 songs but I was really embarrassed about them for some reason. My buddy found them accidentally and told me they were good. I decided to pull them out and see what was so "good" about them and sure enough, they weren't half bad. I thought I'd share them and the background surrounding them one song per post so that my post average can go up alittle! I pray God uses these feeble expressions of a feeble heart to encourage somebody.

Missing My Aim

It’s the same line every evening,
“Sorry Lord, please forgive me.”
It’s the same sins, over and over,
Oh Lord, I feel like am mocking you.

To be holy, that’s my aim,
When I miss, who is to blame?
Help me Lord, to hit my aim

I really do try, to be holy,
Maybe, that’s the problem,
I forget to, ask your aid,
And end up missing my aim

To be holy, that’s my aim,

When I miss, who is to blame?

Help me Lord, to hit my aim

Sometimes I feel so dirty,
And I don’t deserve your mercy,
(But) thank you Lord because you forgive
If I only have faith and believe

To be holy, that’s my aim,
When I miss, who is to blame?
Help me Lord, to hit my aim

The problem with me is that I have weaknesses in specific areas. It is in those areas that I tend to sin and fall short of God's glory. I think its the same for most Christians. If your problem is lying, for example, after a whole day of lying, you'll feel terrible about your sin and ask God for forgiveness. The next day, its the same pit fall, the same weakness and so you mess up again. That evening you again repent. Day three begins, and yet again, its the same weakness, the same pit fall, you mess up but then you wonder, am I mocking God? Every night its the same line, "sorry Lord, please forgive me." You wonder whether God begins to feel mocked. You keep saying sorry for the same sins and yet you keep asking for pardon for them. Its almost like making a mockery of God. In the end, certain days, you won't ask pardon because you wonder if you're playing games with the almighty God. For others it could be, an addiction, drinking, smoking, pornography, lying (yup I know people who lie all by themselves, no pressure on them, they just open their mouth and start lying). For me I felt like I was mocking God, and I'd pray, "God, here I am again, the same sin, I'm sorry, please don't feel that I'm mocking you."

In the second verse, as I was penning this song, I wanted to convey the fact that, I am trying hard not to sin. Then I realised that maybe that was the problem, I couldn't do it on my own, I needed him to help me hit my aim. And don't we all?