I have been courting Masi for three months now. I am enjoying being her lover thoroughly. Another thing I am enjoying is simply being a part of her life. I can’t tell which I am enjoying more. I have always thought that being in a relationship with her would be quite far fetched as she is way out of my league. And so being a part of her life is something I have always desired as a more realistic target. I have always wanted to be so close to her that I'd know when she sat and when she'd get up. My wish has pretty much been granted and I thank God.
I am so interested in her and in what she is doing and in what's on her mind. What is upsetting her, exciting her or making her sad- I wanna know everything. And now, I have that privilege. How many guys get to be with the girls of their dreams? Very few. I have been blessed by God and I hope I never take her for granted.
Well, enough of the romantic talk (lest the singles commit suicide) and down to serious business. I have been reflecting over my… interest in Masi and it has reminded me of God’s interest in every person on this planet. The bible says God has numbered the hairs on our heads (Matthew 10:30). I now appreciate that more than ever since I got into courtship.
I want to know everything about Masi. I want to know even those things trivial. But I can never love her like or greater than God loves her. While I want to know even those things trivial about her, I neither have the capacity/ability or interest in keeping track of the number of hairs on her head. That would be a little too trivial.
I want to know when Masi paints her nails a new colour but I don’t want to know how long they are in millimeters. But God does. I want to know when she gets a new hairdo but I don’t want to know her ‘hair count’. But God does. I want to know when shes excited about something but I don’t want to know her ‘pulse’ in that moment of excitement. But God does.
I do not have the ability to keep track of these things. I wonder if I would keep track of them if I had the ability but God who has the ability does indeed keep track of them. Both for her and for me. That's how much he loves me. That's how much he loves her and that's how much he loves you. Such love!
There's something else that has crossed my mind concerning Masi. It is that I am too… protective (for lack of a better term) of her. I wish that no misfortune befalls her.
The first thought in any one's mind would probably be, “Well, don’t we all?”. Allow me to elucidate:
What I mean is that if I had the power, Masi would never know what it means to be tired, or stressed, sad or depressed, discouraged or downcast, etc. I would literally spoil her. That is nice in that it shows how much I love and care for her, but is that really love and care?
Well, a 'well rounded' individual is shaped by both positive and negative circumstances in their life. You cannot be well rounded if you have not known anything negative in your life. It is the good and the bad that make us the people we are and cause us not to be lopsided. It is therefore important that we experience both sides of life.
It is the negative things of life that mould us, strengthen us, help us really delight and enjoy the positive side. It is the negative things of life that make us proud of our triumph, that equip us to help others going through similar challenges, that bring us closer to others, that keep us humble and cause us to depend on God. That last bit is important for without the negative things of life we become little gods. No wonder God doesn’t cause us to ‘have it easy on earth’. He makes us go through trials and temptations because he actually loves us.
If I love Masi, I won’t try and shield her from all things negative. That would not be love because if I truly love her, I will look at things in perspective recognizing that it is important that she experiences the negatives so that she becomes a better person.
Everytime I hear that she is hungry, I want to rush over there and bring her some food. When I hear that she is in a long queue and tired, I want to drop everything I’m doing and rush over there and stand in her place so she can relax. When I hear her say she wants this or that, I want to provide it. When I hear her say so and so was troubling her, I want to eliminate that individual or give them a piece of my mind. I would like to believe that these reactions of mine are normal because I love her. I would also like to believe that all these have their place and must not be done away with completely. I realize, furthermore, that half the time these incidents occur, I am powerless to even help her (which is rather frustrating). However, in the event that I am able to help, I must not always shield her. I must realize that many of these will shape her into a great person. One who will love God and others better. And if I love her, I will let that happen.
Sometimes we can be over protective of those we love in the name of love and yet it leads to their ruin. It could be a parent with a child, one sibling to another, one spouse to another, one friend to another etc. We must realize that it is important that those we love face the challenges of this world and of day to day life. When we shield them from everything negative, we are not loving them, we are infact, hurting them.
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